Monday, February 22, 2010
Yesterday.
So, I intended on yesterday being a good day and it did turn out to be one but it was rough. I started of my Sunday like any other frantically getting prepared for church because for some reason I can never ever remember to set an alarm on a Saturday night. I woke up in a rush and ran out the door. I was just feeling icky from the start. It wasn't anyone in particular or any one specific event it was a catalyst of everything that has really gone on in the last month. A hard breakup, a friend who is in need, the continuing struggle with my Dad, stuff at home, not having a job right now and trying to find one, figuring out school, being in debt, the list goes on and on...I cried through church. Now, most of you know that I am an emotional person but this came from the bottom of my heart. Feeling so inadequate lately. That I can't help my friends let alone myself. That is a hard place to be. Kinda stuck in limbo. I am trying to stay busy and work on myself but even that feels dull. I just don't know what to do anymore. All I do is pray and wait and listen...but it is so hard.
Friday, February 12, 2010
He shows me His face...
that's it. God is good. more than good... and I am happy.
Thursday, February 11, 2010
By Your Side
Why are you striving these days
Why are you trying to earn grace
Why are you crying
Let me lift up your face
Just don't turn away
Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run
And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you
Look at these hands and my side
They swallowed the grave on that night
When I drank the world's sin
So I could carry you in
And give you life
I want to give you life
(Chorus 2x)
Cause I, I love you
I want you to know
That I, I love you
I'll never let you go
(Chorus 2x)
--Tenth Avenue North "By Your Side"
AMEN a thousand times over. <3
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
A Matter of Importance
It is funny how somethings that are so important and that I let consume my life really aren't that important at all. I have reached a point in my life where I am happy to accept anything God throws my way because He is in control of my life. I can whine, cry, drag my feet but He really does know best. I, like many others, have been deeply effected by what is going on in Haiti. It breaks my heart to look at pictures and read news articles but I have come across some really powerful pictures. These pictures are of the Haitian people praying and worshiping even in the midst of the storm. It gives me hope. I love these people. I have never met a Haitian person before but I love them. I am reminded that my troubles just aren't the end of the world. That whatever is going on in my life is temporary. And that I am lucky to have so much.